It's been about a year now since I last posted on my blog and if it wasn't for the encouragement from some friendly third parties then I probably wouldn't be conducting this post right now. So thank you to those who give a shit, you are appreciated. As I sit here and puff my raspberry leaf and lavender blend out of my brass wooden pipe a few questions come to mind... how did I get here? who have I become? and beyond all, how in the hell do I sum up a years worth of intensely blissful yet emotionally crippling feelings, life lessons, wild adventures, and new beginnings in one consecutive post? Well, thanks to the 21st century, most of us that are so privileged to own a cell phone (which happens to be a majority of the population) enjoy taking quick snapshots of their life. Photos are almost like a glimpse, a portal into someones life. So please let me do the honor and allow whoever is reading this to take a walk down memory lane with me with. Here are a combination of some of my favorite photos from over the course of this year thus far. Spring break road trip. Lydia & I went on (our first of many) traveling through California, Nevada & Utah with our end destination being Zion national park. I consider this point in my life to be the beginning of a new adventurous, confident and fearless energy in my life that I had been missing out on for a while. The amount of self growth and love that I was able to experience and learn from on this trip was immense. Following this transformational experience of traveling through our countries wide open land my whole outlook on life was flipped on hits head. I almost feel as if I experienced an ego death. Though this intense feeling wasn't induced by that of a hallucinogenic trip, I truly feel as if apart had me had died and then come to life again. I truly began to blossom. Along with this change of self came the making of new sisters, and the strengthening of my bonds with those already in my life. I became immensely more grateful and aware of how privileged I was to experience such greatness in this life. Riding the wave of positivity I then proceeded to follow Dead & Company with truly one of my most closest loves in this life. We, as the strong independent goddess women we are managed to drive across the entire pacific north coast all the way to Gorge, Washington and then all the way back down to Los Angeles, California. Hustling the whole way and scrounging together enough cash to make it to 5 shows in total, paying for each practically right before the start of each show. Sleeping in Walmart parking lots and then waking up the next morning to travel, on a good day, 6 or so hours to the next show. The music really never stopped. And we did it without any men! I can officially scratch this off my bucket list and won't doubt it'll happen again. Following quite a grand adventure we moseyed on back up to Humboldt County where we moved in with another two of my absolute soulmates. The four of us truly embarked on our truest discovery of a first real look at sweet sweet adulthood. & we did it together. I fucking love these women. Our backyard sanctuary. This house surely conjured a lot of wonderful memories. Times of my life that I don't think I'll ever be able to forget. The people that flowed through, within and without it will forever mark such a time of comfort and true bliss in my life. Along with this was also a lot of knowledge and very important learning experiences in so many accepts of life, but most especially in home owner ship. And the effect of that on my wallet and life savings... needless to say we moved out for finical reasons. But hey, it was a good run. Made some new friends along the way... Amongst all of this was also many times of intense introspection. During this time I came to realize my absolute desire to experience the world outside of my home. Being outdoors, especially in a place like Humboldt, can't be put to words. You can just simply feel it in the air, the way the sun, rain drops, gusts of wind caress your skin. I found myself constantly ready to explore. This is coming from someone that was unapologeticily a die hard "fat kid" for a good portion of their livelihood. I was refreshed and inspired. I've now left Humboldt and truly did cry all the way home. I'm back in Palm Springs for a few months during the summer before I head onto my next journey. Which will take me across the entire country to the wondrous city of Montreal for a year abroad. In my still very young age of only 19 years old (soon to be 20 coming August 31!), I'm trying to live by the motto that once I get comfortable somewhere it's a sure sign that it's time to leave. So that what I'm doing, it hurts to leave but the growth that has and will continue to come out of this is much more valuable.
I started this post the summer of last year in 2018 and now here I am finishing it summer of 2019. I'm usually pretty lonely when I come home so maybe that's what motivated me to finish. Either way it created quite a bit of reflection upon myself as I tried to sum up my life within the past year and a half. Moral of the story, I'm so fucking grateful for the ebb and flow of life.
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